Easy enough right?
Well, four months have gone by ... and I'm not willing to say I've been better.
I'm not worse, but I'm definitely not better.
66% of the year left ... can I turn it around?
I hope so ... but hope will only get me so far, its the desire, that fierce need that I haven't been able to extract.
Why don't I want to be better enough that I actually DO IT? Plain and simple, because its easier not to. Its easier to be the same, to stay in my box, to eat icing that I made for the sole purpose of eating out of the bowl.
I'm at a conference this week and I am surrounded by people who want to effect change. They want to make the world a better place. My goal isn't quite as lofty but its along the same lines ~ I want to make the world I provide my kids a better place. In order to do this I need to be fit, healthy, of sound mind.
Fit ... I'm supposed to be running right now ...
Healthy ... creme brulee for dessert after a huge steak dinner ...
Sound mind ... not so much sleep these days ...
Hmm, ok, today's not the day. But there will be a day! And I am going to keep updating my blog with posts like this until I actually do it. To remind me that I have a goal.
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